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Awareness day 15: wednesday
Ive had more emotions come up today. I was in the car with mom and she started to talk about how our dead uncle "helps" her with stuff she asks (like praying to god). Well it made me annoyed because once again this was self-intrest ... I mean what about poor people, sometimes they pray and dont get shit, or people who suffer real bad, starving children etc... Their prayers arent answered. And then she said that might be because of their previous lifes.
So I said: oh yeah real fair to get punished and suffer for a past life which you were programmed into and dont even remember :S
Well anyway she was very stubborn and kept defending herself.And said that dead uncle will help the people who she knows because their son fell into the ice cold water and is in the hospital. I said its also self intrest because she knows those people and every day these things happens but she only wants to "help" when its someone she knows. She defended that to say that you cant help everyone...
Anyway I got annoyed and abit sad because of what she said and just because of how egoistical we live and I have lived. And then it came to the topic of desteni and she said she tried to listen but it was so much bullshit and she didnt understand anything, and that sunnette talks alot but sais nothing and is all ego. that got be abit frustrated to. I said to listen to the message and dont look at the picture or messenger. I also asked her to repeat what she heard but she couldnt, and could only repeat how bullshit it was and about the dead people speaking through her. hello mom... your talking to dead uncle so who the fuck are you laughing at! yourself obviously...
So I was frustrated because of that, but it went away fast, I never feel like that more then 5 minutes :P
So a point for me to stop is to stop wanting to convince others or wanting them to see it as I see it. i mean, thats what everyone wants right. So there is no need to get upset or annoyed or something.
And also my dad today left to work and while he walked towards the door he said something about plugging in a fire... I didnt udnerstand it so asked again. he didnt answer and looked annoyed because i asked him to repeat what he said and he gave me a look and said: which other fire is there in the kitchen?
I said: ooohhhh that fire, i didnt understand .
And he left
I felt abit sad but then I wasnt anymore and realised that at times I also reacted like that to having to repeat myself. So that I will stop right away.
So I said: oh yeah real fair to get punished and suffer for a past life which you were programmed into and dont even remember :S
Well anyway she was very stubborn and kept defending herself.And said that dead uncle will help the people who she knows because their son fell into the ice cold water and is in the hospital. I said its also self intrest because she knows those people and every day these things happens but she only wants to "help" when its someone she knows. She defended that to say that you cant help everyone...
Anyway I got annoyed and abit sad because of what she said and just because of how egoistical we live and I have lived. And then it came to the topic of desteni and she said she tried to listen but it was so much bullshit and she didnt understand anything, and that sunnette talks alot but sais nothing and is all ego. that got be abit frustrated to. I said to listen to the message and dont look at the picture or messenger. I also asked her to repeat what she heard but she couldnt, and could only repeat how bullshit it was and about the dead people speaking through her. hello mom... your talking to dead uncle so who the fuck are you laughing at! yourself obviously...
So I was frustrated because of that, but it went away fast, I never feel like that more then 5 minutes :P
So a point for me to stop is to stop wanting to convince others or wanting them to see it as I see it. i mean, thats what everyone wants right. So there is no need to get upset or annoyed or something.
And also my dad today left to work and while he walked towards the door he said something about plugging in a fire... I didnt udnerstand it so asked again. he didnt answer and looked annoyed because i asked him to repeat what he said and he gave me a look and said: which other fire is there in the kitchen?
I said: ooohhhh that fire, i didnt understand .
And he left
I felt abit sad but then I wasnt anymore and realised that at times I also reacted like that to having to repeat myself. So that I will stop right away.
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